行路上山頂

今天一個人遊香港，原本想挑一個我未去過的地鐵站行下，看看究竟香港這一年轉變了多少。事緣前兩日到尖沙咀，竟然發現自己不知道1881 Heritage、K11、iSquare、The One。和同事唱K，也發現自己未聽過陳奕迅的新歌。實在是太遜啦！

結果，今天我沒有乘過地鐵，而是做了我從前常做的事情：行路上山頂。

由香港仔出發，沿貝璐道上，經過山中涼亭，行經薄扶林水塘道。今天放慢了腳步，中途休息了幾次，行了兩個半小時，上到凌霄閣。

其實，香港也有不比紐西蘭遜色的景色，只是我們出生在香港，生活在香港，感覺很多東西都是理所當然了。從紐西蘭回來，用回遊客的心情看香港的一樹一木，一街一景，雖有很多熟悉的東西，但也有很多新鮮的事兒！

Self-defense

Past behaviour patterns that have become completely unconscious now become active and come into play without your knowing it. Your efforts at self-assertion are undermined by these behavior patterns that you are not even aware of. And unfortunately the people who are alienated by these actions probably will not come out and say so, but will work behind the scenes to block your efforts. The only way you can counter this effect is to become completely conscious of yourself and these little self-defeating acts. If you feel emotionally upset as you often will during this time, refrain from any kind of significant confrontation with others. Instead, confront yourself. It is best at this time to work alone as much as possible.
Mars in the 12th House,  12, activity period from 20 September 2010 until end of October 2010

(Source: http://www.astro.com/)

This is so true for me recently. Past behaviours sneak out and undermine my love towards my partner. I am upset by myself, by my feminine side and by my inner male attitude towards my inner female. My right hand is fighting with my left hand. OMG, this feeling comes back. How should I deal with it?

Be a love angel.

水調歌頭 蘇軾

丙辰中秋，歡飲達旦，大醉，作此篇兼懷子由

明月幾時有？把酒問青天
不知天上宮闕，今夕是何年
我欲乘風歸去，惟恐瓊樓玉宇，高處不勝寒
起舞弄清影，何似在人間
轉朱閣，低綺戶，照無眼
不應有恨，何事長向別時圓
人有悲歡離合，月有陰晴圓缺，此事古難全
但願人長久，千里共嬋娟

早餐

這是班蘭蛋糕

這是紫晶酥

                                                                                          

這是香蕉蛋糕



愛人其實是愛自己的另一個形式。當愛人的時候，對方會以意想不到的方式愛著自己。這樣，好像對方是一面鏡子，照亮了自己看不到的部份。

紫芋酥、班蘭鬆、香蕉香。吃著這些早餐，心中很有甜絲絲的感覺。

今次不同於從前的。第一次有一種平衡、平靜、平和、對等的感覺。自紐西蘭這一年，學懂了尊重自己的感受，讓一直抑壓的念頭、情緒一下子解放了出來。當自己珍惜了自己，上天自然會安排一個會珍惜我的人出現。

From Heaven to Earth, back to the Centre of myself

At the end of B65 journey, I pick Osho cards and angel card for advice.

A summary of message is, B65 helps me to experience my spiritual ability. Use it to re-connect and vibrate with the world in order to benefit the poeple. To cut the negative connections and rebel from old thoughts and patterns, which serve no purpose on me now and in the future.

Next bottle of the golden thread, B73, Chang Tsu (莊子). It is a transformed bottle since 2008, when a lot of bottles have visual colour changes before the birth of B106. The lower fraction changes from clear to pale dull yellow. It looks like an inverted sunlight bottle B4, reconnect with our sunlight energy, by facing our fear and understanding our incarnation purpose. In the tree of life, B65 relates to King of Pentacles while B73 relates to Six of Pentacles, both inherited in the Tiphareth Sephirot, the central part of the tree. From Rider Waite tarot, King of Pentacles is like gathering the necessary resources and abundance, while Six of Pentacles is like sharing what I have with neccesary action. Everyone deserves to be cared of, to be loved, to be noticed, to be liked. (including myself)

Osho and angel message at the beginning of B73:

The mind is where I focus my lightwork, vegetables and high frequency energy may help on the journey, becoming mature with feminine energy to accept, embrace and nurture.

B65 (Violet / Red) The name of this bottle is "Head in Heaven, Feet on Earth) I start to use this bottle on 4 July and finish on 9 September 2010. This bottle is with me for this big transition from NZ to HK.

Violet on top is transformation through service, Red on bottom is physical, grounding, practical qualities. I remember I did one consultation and the client chose B65 as her first bottle. "Spirituality in a practical manner" Groundingly, practically put myself to service the world.
When I first came back to HK, I was not in a rush to find a job. I believe there is one job, which is suitable for me, and will come to find me.
I ask myself, if I am going to use my ability and quality to service the world, what kind of job I am doing? I have no immediate answer, but I let myself open for this job to find me. One day, I receive a call from my previous colleague. He tells me there is one ARE position available in the previous company. Although I am not that eager about going back to the same place, I do not totally shut the door, because I know this is the call I am waiting for months.
Thanks to the introduction from my previous colleagues, I need to think thoroughly for one night whether I want to call back my previous boss. If I go back, I won't be an ARE, but I don't want to go back to the same position, so there may be a chance for me to work in the mainland or Singapore office. As I still have one year floating period (according to Deepak's reading on my astrology chart, and also I am in personal year 9 this year), now I still won't know exactly what I am going to be. This year, maybe a year for me to prepare for the next pinnacle.
When I was still in NZ in June, I realize my goals and objectives after coming back to HK. I won't be floating forever, I need a home. I need to build up my own home, pursue my career and find my chosen family member. I am a fully grown up person now, and can't be acting irresponsibly all the time. In order to do so, I become practical, as well as spiritual.
As if I am sailing in the ocean, if I don't have a destination, I won't have sense of direction, and I must fail by wasting all my energy. Only when I set my destination, I have the focus and won't lose direction any more.
B65 is my 1st bottle in the 4-bottle selection. The meaning for me is "to practically serve my purpose to the world." Before going back to Engineering, I was thinking to apply for some other things like police, flight attendant. Luckily, there are some signs telling me to wait patiently. After starting work, the AO / EO positions are opened, I toss my lucky and coin but it says no. I am quite surprised why the messages are so firm that I must be on Engineering, while my feeling is still so floating. However, I believe there is a reason for everything happened. Neptune will be near my IC for 5 more years, maybe that's why it is so misty ahead.
Anyway, B65 is like a re-birth of me. While all bottles before B65 is about clearing my old patterning, all bottles after B65 help me to develop myself in the future.

創意

記得我小時候參加填顏色比賽，我上台拿了冠軍，但是畫不是我畫的，是我爸爸畫的。
我好戰戰兢兢的上台，生怕別人看到了我的心虛。
我的美術成績並不好，好像有一次還不合格。我不知道這跟小時候的冒充有沒有關係，但我是確定自己的才華，應該不在藝術方面。
不過，今天，我對自己改觀了。我和媽媽到了圖書館的徐悲鴻和香港學生作品展，現場有攤位供市民隨意畫畫。我坐下了，第一幅，用黑色墨汁畫了紐西蘭太平洋的日出。第二幅，用紅色水彩寫了書法和畫了一些中色圖案。雖然這不是什麼大作品，但我看著我的畫，有種莫名的感動。我是畫我想畫的東西，沒人在旁干擾，沒有需要學習其他人。而且，我的創意，有我自己的風格，都是反映著我的感受。
創意就是這樣子的吧！

Archangel Michael

自從學習了天使療法，使用天使牌多了，對其功用也了解多了。現在每天早上都會開奧修襌卡、天使卡，用Aura-Soma平衡油、Pomander和Quintessence。

奧修襌卡給我當天的意識上的覺察，
天使卡像一個友人提醒我每天要做的事情，
平衡油帶領我走過每兩個月的心靈課題，
Pomander和Quintessence平衡身體上和氣場上的能量，讓我心曠神怡地迎接每一天。

每天戴著Archangel Michael的吊咀，提醒自己，我是有被愛護著的，我是值得擁有我應得的，我是追隨著自己的信念和人生目標的。