Self-defense

Past behaviour patterns that have become completely unconscious now become active and come into play without your knowing it. Your efforts at self-assertion are undermined by these behavior patterns that you are not even aware of. And unfortunately the people who are alienated by these actions probably will not come out and say so, but will work behind the scenes to block your efforts. The only way you can counter this effect is to become completely conscious of yourself and these little self-defeating acts. If you feel emotionally upset as you often will during this time, refrain from any kind of significant confrontation with others. Instead, confront yourself. It is best at this time to work alone as much as possible.
Mars in the 12th House,  12, activity period from 20 September 2010 until end of October 2010

(Source: http://www.astro.com/)

This is so true for me recently. Past behaviours sneak out and undermine my love towards my partner. I am upset by myself, by my feminine side and by my inner male attitude towards my inner female. My right hand is fighting with my left hand. OMG, this feeling comes back. How should I deal with it?

Be a love angel.